Abby Reynolds

Abby Reynolds is currently a Deaconess student at Concordia Seminary in St. Louis. She is married to Aaron, and they live in St. Louis with their pet hedgehog, Ruby, and adopted puppy, Jax. Abby loves to drink coffee, read, talk about theology, spend time in nature, make music, and have sweet conversations with friends. Visit her blog at peaceofabbysmind.com.
My own journey with chronic pain started when I was around fourteen. I started to notice my back would feel stiff and sore if I stood for longer than a half hour or sat in certain positions, like in the car. But I brushed it off. I honestly didn’t know that having back pain was out of the ordinary - it was just so common for me. As a junior in high school, I learned that my back pain was NOT normal… it was caused by severe scoliosis.

Even after major surgery to correct my curve, the pain continued. I can’t remember a day since then that I haven’t experienced pain and discomfort in my spine which often spreads to my hips as well. Over the years, I’ve grappled with accepting that
You are never going to make all the right decisions.

This is what I told myself as I typed the email to the director of my graduate nursing school to inform her that I was withdrawing from classes for the following semester… and the foreseeable future.

For years before this decision, I had imagined myself working in the medical field. As a junior in high school, I decided my goal was to attend medical school and one day take part in medical missions. From that time on, becoming a doctor guided all of my decisions. I studied biology with a pre-med track in college. During my freshman year, I gained early acceptance to a medical
When I was in college, I was blessed with an awesome group of girl friends. We lived as roommates and suitmates all four years of college and we were inseparable. It was the type of friend group that truly becomes like family. And I had friends in different groups on campus – including touring choir, campus ministry, pre-med club. I loved that whenever I walked across our small campus I would run into several friends to say hi to. I felt like I truly belonged to a strong and loving community.

All of that changed my senior year when the COVID pandemic began and I was forced to